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[Aug. 13th, 2006|03:26 pm] |
The car stopped at the hotel and she got out, straightening out her clothes. The doorman opened the door and she gave the elderly gentleman a flirtatious smile. It made the guys eyes sparkle and possibly made him feel good so she saw no harm in it.
Crossing the lobby she nodded and smiled to a few people in passing. Reaching the elevator she hits the button and waits for it to open. She doesn't bother looking back to see if he was behind her. No doubt he'd be following her around like a little puppy dog going after a great big steak. |
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[Jan. 19th, 2006|11:09 pm] |
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Dream gets out of the shower and gets dressed in comfortable clothes. She and Jaydyn had been at it like animals for the past few nights. They decided to treat Em for all her hard work training with a trip to Disney. She smiles as she walks out and sees Jaydyn still asleep in the bed. Last night she'd really worked him over and his ass was still red from that crop. As she passes him she smacks him on his ass to wake him up.
"Time to get up and get ready baby." |
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[Jan. 14th, 2006|12:34 am] |
Dream reaches over and grabs her computer. She sits up, leaning against the headboard and begins typing.
"It almost happened again, and this time it was my fauly. Emily snuck out of the house tonight to go beat up who hurt me. I don't know what I'm gonna do if she asks who did it. How do I tell her he's dead? It's my fault tonight though. If I hadn't fallen asleep and watched her she never coulda snuck out. I'm a lousy mother to her.
God, what would I have done had I lost her again? It would have killed me for sure. Before we found her I just kept picturing finding her the way she was the last time I watched her die."
She sighs and shuts the computer, putting it beside the bed and lays back on her side, facing the window as she cries all over again. |
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[Jan. 5th, 2006|01:31 am] |
I figured ewhatthe hell, why not do this little questionaire thing, plus I was bored.
01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris.
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea.
14. Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise.
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game.
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby's diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office (school) photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favourite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Bench pressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records/books
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
78. played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theatre
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favour of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honour of a woman.
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas.
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror (Don't ask)
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favourite childhood toy
128. Followed your favourite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did.
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ...more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived.
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
142a. Had a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of 100mph or faster
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196: Dyed your hair
Oh yeah, bound to get questioned about some of that. |
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[Jan. 4th, 2006|12:06 pm] |
Dream sighs as she pulls into the house and gets out. Jaydyn's not home so she goes into the bedroom, changes into a bikini and grabs her computer and a cup of coffee from the kitchen. Then she walks out by the pool and sits under the UV lights to work on her tan. She lays on her stomach and opens the computer, typing.
"I fucked up the other night, big time. Now that I look back on it I don't know what the fuck I was thinking taking Jack into a situation like that. One I had no business being in myself. It's made me doubt myself and my capabilities. Maybe I'm not cut out for hunting like I thought I was. Hell, I'm not even sure I'm fit to be a mother anymore. I'm so afraid of getting close to Emily like I was before. It's in the back of my mind that she could be ripped away from me all over again.
And that makes me feel even more guilty, that I'm not the mother she deserves. I feel like I'm letting everyone I love and care about down. I love Emily and Jaydyn so much I just don't think I'm any good for either one of them. I watch him with her and it makes me so happy that she has such an amazing father. It breaks my heart that I'm not like that with her, the way I used to be. I don't know if I can be a good mother, or wife. God how I want to be. I want to walk around and be genuinely happy with my family.
For the most part I appear that way. I smile and I'm nice but deep down inside I feel inadequate and unworthy of them. I don't know what to do. I'm terrified that I'm going to lose my husband and my little girl. That would kill me. But if I make them unhappy which I think I am maybe they'd be better off without me.
I love them both with all my heart, but I don't think I'm being what the need me to be. I feel like I'm disappointing them both. God, I don't know what to do."
She closes the computer and sighs, resting her head on her arms. |
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[Dec. 28th, 2005|03:42 pm] |
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She nods as she talks with someone on the phone, a lead on a club that needs to be checked out. She leaves a note for Jaydyn and heads out, dialing her cellphone, wondering if Jack might be interested. She coasts the bike onto the street as she hears her phone ringing. |
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[Dec. 24th, 2005|05:05 pm] |
Dream gets Jaydyn's last gift in the bathroom and shuts the door. She heads back into the living room and waits for him to come home. All his gifts were wrapped and under the tree, plus the one in the bathroom. They were doing their special gifts tonight that Emily shouldn't see. She's got him a few weapons down there as well as a few things they can add to their toy chest. The rest could be opened tomorrow night with their little girl.
She's bundled up in pretty normal clothes for once, jeans and a thick dark blue sweater, boots. Her hair down and curly instead of straight, she hasn't worn it like that in a very long time. She goes into the kitchen to start some hot water for hot chocolate. |
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[Dec. 22nd, 2005|09:59 pm] |
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Dream slips into the skimpy little midnight blue string bikini she'd bought on her little pre-honeymoon shopping expedition. She ties the strings to the top and then adjusts the bottoms, tieing the strings at her hips before wrapping the matching see through sarong around the bottom. She pins her hair up and slips some flip flops on her feet, waiting for him to get out of the bathroom. "So help me Jaydyn, you better not be wearing a speedo!" She chuckles and grabs her shades, walking out to the lanai to wait for him. |
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[Dec. 18th, 2005|12:58 am] |
She glances at the clock, wondering if Jaydyn's okay. Emily is laying on her stomach beside her in the bed trying to nap. Lightly she rubs her back, singing softly to her which seems to calm her. For some reason she's on edge when Jaydyn isn't around. She figures it's because she's scared of losing her daddy now that she has one. She watches her eyes slowly drooping and getting heavier. They'd spent most of the day snuggling and cuddling each other in hers and Jaydyns bed.
She keeps singing to her as she falls asleep, keeping an ear out for Jaydyn. |
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| OOC! Thanking an anonymous person! |
[Dec. 17th, 2005|09:23 pm] |
To the person that got me a paid account you ROCK. There is not a word to describe just how much you totally ROCK. So what I guess I'm trying to say is this. YOU ROCK!!!
I love all my friends bunches and bunches, you all know who you are. Anonymous person (That's not really so anonymous but she's not supposed to know that) I just love you a lil bit more than the rest....but shhhh don't tell them that. That's our lil secret ;-)
So once again I say THANK YOU to anonymous person! *gives all sorts of different flavored hugs and smooches and cuddles* Oh and for the rest of you out there...if you wanna send me anonymous gifts (not of the poo on the doorstep kind or puter virus kind) I will gladly accept. ;-)
P.S anonymous person....YOU ROCK!!!! |
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[Dec. 16th, 2005|05:48 pm] |
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Dream smiles as they walk in the house. Her brows raise as she sees all the stuff around. Wow, he has been busy getting stuff for her room. She smiles and turns the tv on her Emily while she goes to look for something to cook for dinner. It occurs to her Jaydyn's not home and she furrows her brows, wondering where he could be. They were gonna have a busy few hours putting everything up in her room. She smiles as she hears Emily singing along with whatever she's watching. She'd have to get a Christmas tree soon too and not to mention wrap all the gifts. |
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[Dec. 15th, 2005|10:43 am] |
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Happily she picks up her computer after a very busy day and begins to type.
"I have my little girl back. It seems so weird to be able to say that again. She's just as perfect as ever was. Jaydyn called me from the Nexus to meet him, I didn't think anything of it. Then when I got there and saw him sitting flat on his ass holding a little girl I knew something was up. When I realized it was Emily I didn't know what to do. How could she have possibly been there?
Then one I had her in my arms again it was just like when she was born. All that pain and worry just faded away and all that mattered in the world was the precious baby girl in my arms. I don't know what I did to deserve this, but I thank God for her being here. The cutest thing is Jaydyn seems to be totally smitten with her I think. They've been pretty much inseperable since we brought her home. I'm glad he's so accepting of her. To be honest I didn't know if I would be when I first saw her.
It's weird, I went into full on mom mode when those little arms went around my neck. It was almost as if I'd lost no time at all. She told me about some of her friends she made back in the Neckus as she calls it. It's so cute. It feels a little weird but nice to be this way again. But Jaydyn's so cute with her and she seems quite taken with him as well.
She told us about her seeing her version of me and Johnny fighting and it damn near killed me. Did my Emily see us? God I hope she didn't. I was worried when Jaydyn heard about it since I didn't tell him. But surprisingly he took it really well and was sweet about it. He's already kinda took on the role of Daddy with her a little bit and it really touches me since my Emily didn't really have that. I'm not sure if this one did, I'll have to talk to her about it sometime. Right now I'm just gonna let all this sink in and be glad to have her back. I'm gonna cherish every second this time and not take anything for granted. There will not be a day that goes by that she doesn't hear me say I love her."
She closes the computer and sets it down, leaning back in a chair and just smiles. |
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[Dec. 7th, 2005|06:46 pm] |
Dreams walks inside the house and sets her stuff down. She grabs her computer and sits on the bed. Not once in the past two years had she missed her this badly. It's like it all cam crashing down today and she truly realized it for the first time, her little girl was gone. She takes the computer and begins to type, still a little dazed.
"Something happened today. I was in the Nexus and this guy was asking about Christmas songs. ever since she's been gone I haven't really paid attention to the holiday. But something struck in me and I remembered singing to Emily, always one song she liked more than any other. The fact I remembered the words at all amazed me. It didn't hit me until then that...she's gone. I'll never get to hold my little girl again, never get to watch her rush downstairs on Christmas morning to get to the presents...or get to bake her those cookies she loved. I can't do this anymore, being without her is too hard."
As it completely sinks in her eyes fill with tears. She pushes the computer off her lap, not thinking Jaydyn would possibly come home or even look at it. She can't think of anything right now. She goes to her bike and gets on, peeling out with the tears streaming down her cheeks. The anger and sadness she feels overwhelms her. She doesn't think to use stealth mode so Jaydyn won't be able to find her. |
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[Dec. 2nd, 2005|09:38 am] |
| [ | How I feel |
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Dream sits by the pool with her computer, working on her tan from the UV lights. She relaxes when Jaydyn was out doing something or other. Her fingers move over the keys briskly.
"Well, it's been an interesting last couple of days. I now have a boyfriend, Jaydyn. He's a good guy, treats me good. He's really amazing and I can feel myself falling harder and harder everyday for him. I think he feels the same way too. He broke a guys arm the other day for messing with me in a bar. And then afterwards we had a fight and then apparently we became a couple.
He bought my a motorcycle, I was surprised to say the least but it was really sweet. I really like taking care of him, it's nice after so long of being alone. I don't know how I ever thought I could have resisted him and now I'm glad I couldn't. He asked me to move in, and I did. It's weird, I have a home again"
She smiles and sets the computer down, leaning back, awaiting her man to get home. |
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[Nov. 28th, 2005|05:08 pm] |
Dream lays in his arms, having been awake for a while now, just watching him sleep. It still hadn't quite settled in yet, this aws her boyfriend. The phrase sounds so juvenile to her but it's very comforting. With a slight smile on her face she just watches his face as he sleeps.
After they'd gotten to his place last night they'd showered and gone to bed, not really saying too much other than good night. She figures it was a shock to both of them and it would take a little time to get used to the idea. |
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[Nov. 27th, 2005|08:32 pm] |
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Dream sits down on the bed in her hotel room and sighs. She grabs the computer and sets it in her lap, sitting back to write.
"The guy I met..Whistler. Well, his first name's Jaydyn. I don't know what to say about him other than that he's amazing. The sparks between us are nothing short of explosive. I can see myself getting in deeper and deeper with him and it scares me. I'm not so sure he wants anything like that. Things in bed between us are so hot...I mean surface of the sun hot. But what if there's nothing else and he doesn't feel what I think I'm feeling. Then I'm left alone to be hurt. I'd rather keep things the way they are without voicing anything."
She sighs and rubs her hands over her face.
"I talked to him about Emily...and what happened. Haven't done that with anyone since she died. He was really sweet about it too, which I didn't call him on. I don't wanna make him clam up on me or get mad. He told me about his parents..his mom, that seems to still be an issue for him which I understand probably better than anybody. Found out his half vampire, it was a little weird at first but he explained he only has their strengths, not their weaknesses.
I think I kinda hurt his feelings a little by my initial reaction. But it doesn't bother me now. I know he's not one of them and that he'd never hurt me."
She closes the computer and puts it on the floor. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2005|04:05 am] |
| [ | How I feel |
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Dream wakes up completely forgetting where she's at and that she's with anyone at all until she feels a strong arm around her, making her smile as last night replays in her head. Slowly she eases out from under him so as not to wake him. As soon as her feet hit the floor and she stands up she feels the soreness but stays quiet.
Still wearing only his shirt she limps slightly towards his kitchen and looks through the fridge, grabbing some bacon, eggs, bread and cinnamon. Being as silent as possible she starts cooking breakfast, something she hasn't done in a very long time. A low growl forms in her throat as the scent of the frying acon hits her nose.
She beats a couple of eggs and mixes in some cinnamone then soaks some bread in it for french toast. I hope he's hungry in the mornings. She doesn't even realize she's humming softly as she cooks. |
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